We got the house. What a relief.

We are comming down to the wire on buying our house. We should be done by wednesday. Boy am I stressed out until we get it done. On pins and needles.

There is nobody I can talk to, the stress of trying to buy this house is killing me. I have no friends anymore, they are all just gone. I don't know where to turn. I just want it all to be over.

I am still not out of the fog yet, I have no direction, no motivation. I just keep on keeping on. Things are no better today than yesterday. I don't understand people any more. Their word just go right passed me. I don't know what to do any more.

I don't know what to think any more. I seem so isolated and alone. Friends die and I never replace them, and I don't know why. I guess I can only tolerate a few types of people as friends.  I feel things, but not clearly.

I am just lost any more, and don't know what to do. I have no friends any more, all my old friends are dead. It is funny that I really don't seem to care. I miss them. I just don't know what to do any more. I can't play the guitar anymore because my hands are stiff, and I have lost the music inside. Oh well I'll just keep pn keeping on,